"One thing that really helped me when I was struggling was realizing no one is a better me. Everyone is so unique and no one else is more beautiful you than YOU"

"Nothing hurts me more than thinking that some girl out there doesn't believe she's beautiful. Its just another one of Satans lies."
- Miley Cyrus







I realised that everybody doesn't know how much of an impact their words will have on others.
Something you say might mean nothing to you, but could mean the world for others.


It really pleases me when one's words are unintentionally inspiring.


The way Miley put her words, it was from herself - she wasn't directing it to anyone,
and neither was she trying to console someone. She was just speaking her thoughts.
And I love it when I come across inspiring words like hers, because it makes me feel a lot better about myself, especially after a weary period of unappreciation for who I am.

























So admittedly, I learnt something today:

Nobody else can be a more beautiful you - only you can. Don't let others' opinions affect you too much, because they don't know how it's like to be you.

on a side note, i remember a few days ago, he said:
will you catch me when i fall? because i'm falling for you.

cheesy yes, but i like. :)

credits: *stacie*, flickr Friday, July 10, 2009











Wednesday's New Schedule:

0900 - 1200: PA Lab
1200 - 1300: GMP Facilitation
1300 - 1500: PA Lecture
1500 - 1800: PA Lab









WARNING: Content ahead will dull you.









If you looked at the times carefully, you'd have realised that there's no break for lunch. :)




To summarize:

- Had to go through ALOOOOOOOOT of theory during PA Lab today. I almost died.
Thanks a million Nisa and Brandon, for making me laugh during lab. :)
Anyway it didn't end early like we hoped it would. But thanks to Jasmine & Ms Shahedah,
the 10 of us at least had 10minutes lunch break before GMP. And by lunch, I mean snacks.
By the time we finally rushed to get our lunch, we only had 5minutes left to eat.


- GMP Facilitation for 1 hour. Not too bad but lunch turned cold.


- Wanted to visit the toilet before PA Lecture.
While in the toilet, I was suddenly told that there was LECTURE QUIZ!
Ugh. I couldn't even pee in peace. Had to rush to the LT to do the quiz.
Turns out that it was a lecture EXERCISE - don't even need to hand in. -_-


- PA Lecture was very very strenuous - it totally saturated my mind for the day.
And the lecturer being a *(&$#*($#*@#*@ today didn't help at all.

Best thing was, I was told to bring the stupid clean suit, which took up alot of space in my bag.
Only to know that it's not needed today. And I didn't bring my cardigan bcos of that.
So during lecture, I was freezing - no thanks to the air-conditioning + rain. Had to hide my arms in my bag :(


- PA Lab was full of theory again - going through post labs.
But wasn't that bad cos Ms Shahedah made it fun!
Can you imagine if it was the other lecturer? Hahahaha.






VERY VERY VERY PA-saturated Wednesday.
This is the new permanent schedule for my Wednesdays for the next few weeks.
Don't know how I'm going to tahan seriously. Haha.

BORING RIGHT, reading about my boring day.
But I needed to rant, so there. Thanks for reading :)


Wednesday, July 08, 2009










Obsessed (2009)
Derek Charles is a hard working man, employed as a asset manager in a private company. He is very happy with his beautiful wife, Sharon, and only son, and because of his hard work he just got a huge promotion. But suddenly he gets a temporary worker who is both attractive and smart, and Derek is understandably impressed with her and also finds himself physically drawn to her. However, this new girl is desperate to get close to him - at any cost.

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I love thrillers. I loved MI:3, Derailed.
But this thriler is not my type AT ALLLLLLL.

I can't stand unfaithfulness, and anything else along that line.
It'll kill me. Would probably cause me to have a heart attack, if I were to watch.

I feel so mental for saying this but any more huge blows for me,
I seriously think I'd be deranged. AND I'D RATHER DIE.

So please, I'm begging you, no more of these... please. Tuesday, July 07, 2009









Usually I can't bring myself to smile if I wake up late for school.
How to smile when you have to rush like mad and shower in 5minutes?

But I woke up late for school today, smiling.
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Because I know after 2 hours of lecture,
I CAN GO HOME AND FUCKING SLEEP.











I love sleep.

It clears your mind and rejuvenates you, after it seems like you've lost a few years worth of sleep.
And especially so after you've had your heart twisted and crushed by emotional trauma. :) Tuesday, July 07, 2009









Sunday, July 05, 2009









I've never felt this devastated in a LONG time.



It was like a giant destructive windstorm that hit without warning,
and the aftermath is seriously devastating to deal with.
It'll definitely take time to clear the debris and the mess made.
Like how it takes time to heal this shit.


It was a really fucking traumatizing ordeal.


Now I'm on my toes, constantly getting paranoid should there be another occurrence.
And now I'm mentally prepared, and emotionally guarded for another round of pain.
Another more of this shit, I'll seriously break apart.


And boy, they weren't exaggerating when they said that the pain is so great,
it literally feels like there're knives stabbing you.
My heart was aching the entire day.



















It felt as though I was having really bad period cramps in the chest.
Hahahaaa.


Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Frankly, I never really knew him. When his career peaked, I was still learning how to walk.
But I know my mother loved him & his songs. She still does, actually.


Over the years, I've heard many stories/rumors/scandals about him.
I never really grew fond of him - I was terrified, actually.


I remember watching the music video of Thriller when I was younger,
and it scared the living daylights out of me. And then I heard about him changing colours.
Yeah that was what I was told as a child - that he changed colours.


That's how I eventually perceived him as THE SCARY WEIRD MAN ever since.



















But despite everything I've heard, I truly admire what he has transcended over the years.
The many songs, genres, signature dance moves are all very, very admirable.
I believe no artiste can match up to the fame and admiration he's attained throughout his career.
I'm honestly still in shock, numb with the news and full of refusal to believe that he's passed on.

credits: jabulela.com, ecorazzi.com

Monday, June 29, 2009

The most common symptoms are bloating, weight gain, headache, backaches, irritability, depression, breast swelling or tenderness and fatigue.

I hate being a girl sometimes.
'Nuff said. Sunday, June 28, 2009










Firstly, I want to say HULLO! to contact lens. :D


Secondly, Jonas made a new record today!




































He actually asked me out on a coffee date after school today.
Just to TALK-TALK.














Amaza-zing. WHAT A (pleasant) SURPRISE, SERIOUSLY!!!!!
No sarcasm intended at all. (for the record he has never asked me out like that before)


GOOD ON YOU MY BOY, YOU MADE MY DAY. :D
Thankyou :)
















My coffee tasted quite awful though.
Like liquid antibiotics. Ugh. Wednesday, June 24, 2009









Delinquent adolescent
Juvenile crime
I didn't kill myself
All I did was mime





















I suddenly remembered the above paragraph while walking home today.
I thought of it when I was 14. Angsty and unhappy.
And everytime I posted that online, something bad happens.

Not a curse or whatever lah. It's just how being a teen can make you do silly things. Haha.
I was just an unhappy child. And I know why - it was because of that very one person.
Who was supposedly make my life happier but made it hell instead.

But anyhow, thanks to him, I truly learnt how what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009